i have no seductive slogans.

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Something in the way

People keep on telling me
Everything's going to be alright,
Or that it's going to get better

But when is that going to happen?

I don't have a magic fairy godmother or anything
Not that I know of at least
Even if I did, she'd have to do alot of magic on alot of other people.

Life is oh so confusing.

There's no magic tricks up around the bend;
Life sucks and it doesn't look like it will be getting better any time soon.

Wednesday, December 07, 2005

"And yet the elegant manner in which he stated things was inexplicably soothing"

It's official: I am now really a bad person.
I mean, I really didn't do anything at all,
But merely the idea that I might have,
That is enough to pretty much
So yeah.
I'm scared as hell.

I talked on the phone for 40 minutes today.
That could be some kind of record
{In recent times at least}

Here's a quote from my relative's MySpace,
I found it rather amusing, I don't see how you couldn't enjoy this.
"martinis and mortification
So last night my sister got drunk. So drunk she was convinced that she was dying. And so drunk that she convinced her friends to take her to the emergancy room, where she is told that she is not in fact dying of alcohol poisoning, but is, in fact, just drunk. So they stick her on a cot and let her sleep for a few hours. Talked to her today, she said, "id feel less hungover if i didnt feel so stupid." but really, dont we all feel like that every sunday?"

Sunday, November 06, 2005

...And he also made false teeth

I've discovered that there's more to people than just good and bad.
For once I'm noticing how the "popular people" aren't necessarily the most popular anymore, and really Upper School has only done good things to change our grade.

Life really isn't as bad as it may seem at times. Why?
Most of my insecurities are all in my mind, or at least not important to the rest of the world. I don't know if that's true for everyone else, but I have the stupidest fears sometimes.
People always seem to be nicer when you get to know them.
My little "groupie"/clique thing has gotten so small that we're all hanging out with different people than we used to. At one time there were like 8 of us... but now there's really 5 and a half or something like that.
But my whole point is: people aren't being exclusive, and it's not so clique-oriented, which is just about the greatest thing that's ever happened.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

i don't know.

i know that i'm always saying
"I don't know"

but really,
i don't.

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Catch the Fever

I think I've got it!

I've made an accidental friend

but i was feeling so crappy, then everybody cheered me up
which was nice
because instead of bursting into tears,
i could just sit in the gym,
talking about nothing of importance
and it was like, in that moment, there was nothing at all to worry about

actually i did exactly that at least thrice today...

...and then my dad got really mad at me. but oh well!
i'm still in a great mood for some reason.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

um, excuse me, but couldn't this apply to just about anyone?

inferiority complex

n : a sense of personal inferiority arising from conflict between the desire to be noticed and the fear of being humiliated

Neil Young

Guess where i just got back from?

The beach!

I love going on spur-of-the-moment trips. :) but it was kind of convenient, since we were already in Jacksonville, losing our soccer game (ARGFH) and the beach was only half an hour away! so i was like BEACH YAY! and we actually went and it was just about the best thing ever.
i even got to go swimming!
but it was SO cold. just sitting on the beach, i was wearing a long-sleeved shirt with three jackets and sweatpants. but it was definetly worth it.

i love the beach.



Here's all the deadness i saw on the way home:
-A dog! so sad.
-A deer
-A sheep with it's throat ripped out.
-Another deer
-Yet another deer
-A racoon
-A tiny little orange kitten
-Another deer
-A baby racoon
-Three more deer
-A couple opossums
Also someone getting carried off on a stretcher.
Ah, so much death. That's just so yummy.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

argh, laguna beach is just so great.
i was thinking about how if I had a cliffside pool & hot tub, i could just have a party any old time, invite whoever i wanted, and make my own drama all the time, not to mention the being insanely rich and powerful part.
but if you think about it, LC and Jason hooking up IS so random, but it's so true. life's just like
that. you can never know what to expect.

i'm thinking about fucking Laguna Beach. how sad can things get?

...and that is my lame life.